Confessions of a Mad Fat Pastor’s Wife – Trader Joe’s and Dignity

I was driving to Trader Joe’s yesterday. If you know me, you know that TJ’s is my happy place.

Except on a weekend. Or holiday. Or any time that isn’t 8am because it is too dang busy.

But still, mad mad love for my TJ’s.

In fact, here is a list of some of my very favorite current TJ’s loves.
1. Cauliflower rice. Mixed this in with our chicken fried rice, and my family couldn’t tell. Yes Lord, for hidden veggies.
2. Lemon olive oil. Add salt and pepper and you have the easiest salad dressing.
3. Raw fermented sauerkraut with persian pickles. Grill your favorite smoked sausage, slice in half, top with a drizzle of mustard and this, nirvana, my friends.
4. Organic Kettle Chips. The best chip that makes me feel the least amount of guilt when packing a school lunch.
5. Nectarines. These last about a minute at our house.
6. Gluten Free sandwich bread. We toast this for the occasional sandwich, and this makes a phenom homemade crouton.
7. Bacon Cheddar Popcorn. What? Yeah. Sneak this into your next movie, but not Regal since they gonna search you now.
8. Truffle Marcona Almonds. Dead.
9. Broccoli Bites. You can see how I eat them over on Instagram.
10. Raw milk Smoked Cheddar. So good.

Now.. I didn’t start this post intending to list my faves. I actually wrote this blog post on my way. In my head. But alas, I got distracted and wanted to tell you about ALL.THE.WONDERFUL.THINGS.

With that being said, knowing full well you will purchase these delightful items(grin), I can carry on.

There was a bible verse running through my head while I was driving.

She is clothed with strength and dignity, and laughs without fear of the future.

It is definitely a woman’s verse, right?

And, I was pondering how this woman would act. In the days this was written, women truly were covered from head to toe, culturally. Imagine with me then, being spiritually covered, from the top of our sweet head to the tip of our (pedicured or not) toes with His strength and His dignity.


It hit me like a ton of bricks that I don’t typically walk this way. My head hangs low, even if you can’t tell. My feet stumble with insecurity. There isn’t much joy when I get my head in this murky space.
I needed His revelation yesterday. I needed to be reminded that when I walk with Him, I am clothed completely.

There is no shame. There is no fear. And there is lots of joy.

Dignity cancels out shame.  Strength cancels out fear. Mind blown.

So, I said this aloud to myself before I got out of my car. Sans makeup. Messy bun. Wrinkled t-shirt. Fluffy body. I said… I am steady and grounded with the weight of His strength in me. And His dignity on me.

Come On!  Isn’t that good????

You see.. I struggle with shame and fear and feeling worthy of dignity. Every day.

I sure do.

I am a Lead Pastor’s wife of a growing, thriving church and I don’t have it all together. Aren’t you so glad?

I sure am.

We are trying to create a space where perfection isn’t the thing, and messy people are loved to wholeness in Jesus’ name. And the pastor and his wife are right in there with everyone. And when that pastor’s wife has a revelation, sharing it with you is the first thing she wants to do. Because if it helped me, I know it has to help another woman who walks with uncertainty and shame and fear, and without joy.

I don’t want that for you, or me.

Girls.. We are steady and grounded with the weight of His strength in Us. And His dignity on Us.   

Get it, girls.
And also, go to Trader Joe’s for all the things. 😉

Everyday Life – Paleo Coffee Cake

I woke up this morning to a recipe in my news feed that I had to try. I look at recipes all the time, but I usually don’t have all the ingredients, so it goes uncooked, unbaked, uneaten.

This morning was no different. I had no maple syrup. I did have honey, and I figured these would work just as well with that sweetener. So I gave it a go.

Here’s the recipe I used, and below the picture, I will post my modifications. My kids have eaten nearly half the pan.

It’s a small pan. They are teens. What can I say.

I had one slice, with a half a cup of coffee/splash of organic cream. Utterly satisfying.

I’m not a baker. Don’t like baking at.all. But these will be made again. SO GOOD!!!

My mods –

In place of maple syrup, I used 1/3 cup of raw honey.
I only used 1/2 cup of chocolate chips mixed in the batter. Not because I’m healthy… I didn’t want to use up all the chips. I’m cheap. That’s what it is.
I did not use shredded coconut, because my kids don’t like the texture.

Still amazing. Make it!!

Free Printable – All of me loves all of you.


Tell me you love this song. Please. And also, I just totally teared up watching that video. And.. I need to learn how to play the violin, and get some dang canopy lights up in here.

If you haven’t guessed by now, I do love that song. It’s real. It ain’t full of cheese. The song doesn’t talk about how perfect the other person is. It explains love the way I think it’s meant to be. You are messed up. I am messed up. But we love each other’s crazy anyways.

So good.

Here’s the other thing. I don’t know if you’ve met me, but I’m not a little woman. I am fluffy, and sometimes that fluff gets me down. When Todd and I were first married, for the first couple of years, I would sometimes lament my body shape.  Who I am kidding, I still do.  But, his response each and every time?

Babe, I love all of you.

I would smile, and hug him, but I didn’t realize what a gift that was to me. And then a jillion years later.. John Legend wrote a song saying the same thing. I mean… right?

Listen, I know John isn’t talking about loving an overweight woman.. but my husband was. And my husband still does. Confidence in a relationship is knowing you are doing the best you can, you aren’t there yet, you may never be, but you still have the love of your Person.

Whenever I hear this song on the radio, even the remix version, I turn it up, and I think of my husband. It makes me want to kiss him. A lot. And tell him thank you. And I don’t know if you’ve met my husband, but he’s into kissing me, so that’s pretty sweet.

And so this morning, I made this. allofme

I am going to print and frame this for his office. It is us. It is what God has been shaping and molding, in us, all this time.

On the off chance that any of you readers may love the meaning behind these words, I’m gifting this printable to you as well.  It is sized 8.5×11, so you can just print this up on your home printer.  Hang on your wall with some decorative washi tape and call it good. 🙂


Frame it. Hang it. Read it. Even if you are not there yet in your world, it can be a hopeful thing to remind yourself of daily.

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And, babe?  I love all of you too.



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Free Printable… In This House Poster

Our church is going through an awesome series called, Olympic Parenting, and my hubs was posting some great resources this morning for our church family. I posted the following poster for our group. This is hanging in our hallway.
In This House -Jpeg.

Of course, Pinterest inspired this poster. This is nothing new. In fact, this poster has been in our house almost 2 years. I’m not sure why I have never bothered to share it.

I’m a good starter, folks. I start really well. That finish line.. ugh. Not my friend. All you finishers out there can shake your heads at me. IT WON’T CHANGE ME.

I’ll never be creme brûlée.

1000 cool points if you can name that movie.

Where were we? Most of the pins I have seen are a vinyl, straight to the wall version. Or a fancy hand painted reclaimed wood, save the earth art piece. Since I don’t own a vinyl cutting machine, nor have the skill or patience for painting details, nor do I want to spend a meeellion dollars or save the earth… I came up with a way to get the message across in a big way, without the expense. Or mess. You feel me?

Don’t save the jpeg version, as that is really tiny. Click the link to download the full version, so you too can save money, time, and sanity.

But, still shout loudly from the hallway wall that your family WILL HAVE FUN, AND WILL LOVE EACH OTHER, dangit.

It’s super effective. Promise.

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I heart Free Printables. Do you? Thought so.

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